The Adventure Begins

Redundant with no fixed source of income!

I have no 'real' excuse at not having a job lined up - there are plenty of vacancies out there and I've had plenty of time to apply.

The truth is I don't want another 9-5 job, where: Flexibility, Well Being, Family...... are just words without meaning or action attached to them.

This is the first time I have openly admitted to myself, or others that I no longer feel the passion for my work within a charity.

It's not the many disadvantaged young people I have supported over the last 15yrs. I still care passionately for them and the barriers they face and have overcome.

I do not however feel passion for working in a corporate enviroment where politics and red tape come between been able to help and support a young person or not.

It feels good to say what I have been feeling over the last few months. It gives me a sense of relief - not sure I will be saying that next month when I have to pay the bills!

But for now I feel an excitment that I haven't felt for a long time, that feeling of adventure, when you are begining a journey that you have never trod before and you are 'itching' to get started.

I have had one of the most overwhelming few weeks! I work for a highly respected National organisation. for most of my time there i have loved, indeed been passionate about the work i do. although in the last couple years there has been many changes, restructures, consultations, and redundancies, leaving employees (myself included) realing, overwhelmed and trying to catch their breath! It has left the organisation working in a completely different way and in some ways that I neither understand or agree with. It has been left with an inexperienced management structure who, to be honest I am ashamed and embarrassed to be connected with. While all this has been happening I have focussed, as much as possible, on my work, confident that although I do not agree with everything, that I can continue to work with and support the people I am passionate about, helping them to move forward in their lives despite massive disadvantages! But events over these weeks have forced me to reevaluate why I have stayed in this organisation? Finding cellspin is giving me the platform to write my thoughts, feelings, and to give you the opportunity to follow me on my journey, which will be a journey of fear, uncertainty as I have no idea how this will all resolve itself?My position as I write this is I have accepted Voluntary redundancy (or was maybe forced into it, im not sure?)So i guess for now you are as up to date as i am with all this. Over the coming weeks as the adventure continues.